Since the India trip years back, my whole dinning habit and mindset has been completely changed. I love to eat so much previously. All kinds of food and cuisines, as long as taste good, I would love it. It would even upset me if the food tasted bad.
During the trip, I saw living beings (human and animals) without enough food and not enough clothes. Although I was lucky enough by didn’t see any dead body, but it really impact me! Learnt from my friend who went India together; and started to think seriously right after what he said me on the flight to India: Function of food is to provide us the nutrition, in order to support our physical system and keep us alive. It is so REAL!
Since I was a big-eater, and used to order lots of food as habit. Therefore, when my mindset started to change at the very beginning, I really have to eat a lot, in order not to waste any food. Especially, when dining with others, I had a very bad habit to order lots of food. If couldn’t finish all, then take the food back home as the last option. However, it still makes me feel bad about wrapping food home as it doesn’t go green either. Hence, I started to learn order lesser; and must finish all the food.
Recently, not much appetite, even the weather is cold here. Well, nothing goes wrong of my body, maybe it’s just getting old and being eat lesser. It’s good for diet though. Ha.
However, I forgot to request lesser food yesterday… There was almost a half bowl of rice being wasted! I feel so bad…so bad… really regret about it.
No one really blame me, but by the time I put down the fork and spoon as felt upset in my stomach; and I knew I couldn’t take anymore food, my heart started to break up… There are so many people died from hunger in every single minute in the world.
It is a very bad experience. I don’t know how to express how bad I really feel about it. I feel guilty indeed. Seriously! People properly think that I’m crazy. People may think that I take it too serious and criticize. But the shortage of food problem is something about lives and our world! How could I don’t take it serious?!
Well, by writing this article is to confess my guilt; which hope can make one feel better (Another kind of selfish act). Also, to remind myself not to have the same happen again in my life ever since now!
Don’t just talk! Act it out!!!
